Catching up...

I've been quiet the past few days, but I have continued to track my meals. I did take the day off on Sunday. I enjoyed brunch with my husband and friends and dinner out (with margaritas)! I did pretty well yesterday staying on plan (banana chocolate chip singles for breakfast, pot roast with carrots and potatoes for lunch and turkey hot dogs for dinner). Today was not such a good day. Breakfast was fine, however I was out of the office today and planned on eating lunch with my kids. Unfortunately, the lunch being served was the strangest mystery meat I've ever seen, so I ended up in the drive through. On top of that, one of my boys graduated from high school today, so we had cake and ice cream to celebrate. I didn't even think about what I was eating until it was too late. For dinner tonight, we had tacos. I use very lean ground beef and I don't eat a ton. It's a filling meal and something everyone in the house will eat without complaining! It's summer time and unfortunately, I seem to fall into the ice cream trap. I had a WW giant fudge bar for my second dessert of the day (only 3 pts). So, today was not the best day. I did track all of my food and can acknowledge that I went over my daily point allotment (thank goodness for weekly points)!

I found this picture quite some time ago and it really hit home for me (as much as I want to be in denial about it).




I don't agree with each statement, but there are several that I identify with. I don't understand my relationship with food. It is comforting to me and it seems like the one thing in my life that I don't have control over. I'm getting there, but I still have a ways to go. I'm not the kind of person to just eat an entire bag of potato chips or package of cookies in one sitting. I can control myself in that sense. I think one of my biggest struggles is not listening to my own body. A lot of times, I'll grab a snack because I'm bored. Or splurge on a meal to celebrate. The thing I like most about WW is that it reminds me of balancing my checkbook. If I've used all of my points, it's just like I've spent all of my money. I cannot eat anything else just like I can't buy anything else. There's a bit of a cushion for days that catch us by surprise - kind of like a rainy day plan. WW makes me accountable for the points that I use. When I don't track my points, it's usually because I know I've gone over and don't want to see that in blank and white (you know, if you don't write it down, the calories don't count, right?).

I'm rambling, but I am going to continue to hold myself accountable and track my points even when I go over. And, I'm going to learn to pay more attention to my body - eat when I'm hungry, not bored.