Thoughts on Motherhood.

Sophie is in a place where going out in public is just no fun. 

She throws tantrums. 

She acts like a pig. 

She squeals loudly. 

We get dirty looks and more and more, I'm feeling ostracized. 

I sat outside during church yesterday, in tears because I couldn't even listen to the sermon. I took her to the grocery store last night and she threw a tantrum. I didn't get all the groceries, toilet paper or paper towels. Instead, I pulled into the driveway and immediately burst into tears, proclaiming loudly "I'M DONE!" Danny probably thought I was nuts, but I was at the end of my rope and just couldn't do it anymore. 

I'm looking for a solution here. I've thought that the only solution is just to stop going out in public, but I don't think that's true. I mean, being a mom is lonely enough as it is. I don't want to just sit at home and do NOTHING because Sophie can't sit still during dinner. 

It seems as though the invitations to dinner and other fun things are dwindling. I have great friends, but times are changing. Gone are the late nights of sipping margaritas and talking about nothing. We have so few friends with kids that having play dates is difficult. The ones that do have kids...well, we have a hard time connecting. Between naps, meals and bedtime, it's hard to squeeze it all in. 

So, I'm looking for inspiration. Something that tells me that it's all going to be okay. I found this blog today, and though I haven't fully delved into it, a few of her comments have made me chuckle today. 

I know it will be okay. I just have to remember that when Sophie is throwing a fit and Danny is working (which happens about 5 out of 7 nights a week), that millions of mommies have done this before and their children grew up to be productive members of society.